I’m always hungry.
September 8, 2010 § 202 Comments
Lately I have come across more and more articles and quotes from stars straight up admitting, “I’m always hungry”. We live in a world where image is everything. And I am just as invested in that world as anyone else. It’s a little bit frightening when a magazine will discuss celebrities diet extremes border-lining eating disorders, and use the term “fab figures” in the same article. It’s glorified that these women don’t eat. But if I were in their situation and under that amount of scrutiny, I have to admit I would probably be doing the same thing they are.
As of late, I have gone through a bit of a self-conscious spell. Like any woman, or person for that matter, there are things about myself I don’t like. Probably things most people wouldn’t notice. Remember the scene in Mean Girls when all the girls are staring in the mirror and pointing out their ugly knees, and “man shoulders”? I can safely say I have had many-a-moment just like that. The difference between me and these women though, is I don’t have to be photographed everyday or wear skimpy outfits on camera. I’ve got a bit more leeway than they do.
I guess what I’m getting at is: Eating disorders. I’m no expert, and I can thankfully say I have never fallen victim to one. But I think many of us, especially women, are always teetering on the edge of falling prey to one. A few weeks ago when I wrote my food diary, it’s about as close as I’ve ever gotten to becoming obsessive about my eating habits. I knew I would be posting it online, and I also knew at every moment of the day, exactly how many calories I had eaten. Each day almost became a new challenge to see if I could eat less and still be satisfied. I became guilty when I would go over my daily limit, and even to the point where I felt I deserved be punished the next day by denying myself something I wanted. Mind you, this only lasted for a week, and as soon as I was done with the blog, I went back to my normal eating habits.
But I guess it’s good to read this stuff. I have a healthy diet, I workout a few times a week, and I’m active daily. Yet I don’t have the sculpted arms or toned legs that I desire. Why is that? I eat. The bodies these women are achieving are unnatural and unhealthy. Eating disorders are scary, and are more than just body image issues. A lot of it has to do with control and often goes hand in hand with depression. And that was what I was feeling a few weeks back. In fact, that week was really rough for me mentally. I guess I can connect the two now.
Over 8 million people in the US are suffering from an eating disorder, and 90% of those are women. We need to stop asking ourselves why we don’t look like the women on the screen or in the magazines. They are starving themselves. I know it’s not as easy as just deciding to be ok with yourself and being healthy, but if you think you may be suffering from an eating disorder, there is help out there. And sometimes solving some deeper issues, can help bring solutions to more superficial ones.
I know it’s not a simple answer. As the aunt to a beautiful young lady, I want her to grow up with a positive body image, healthy habits, and realistic view of what a healthy woman is.
I’ll preach my motto again: Everything in moderation… Even moderation.